twisting, turning failing, falling raging, running is there no end screaming, shouting cursing, crying living, lying i see no end my trust in you what else can i do you cradled my soul these chains they bind the key i try to find my hearts in a hole breaking, biting punching, pounding doing, dying will it ever end walking, writing hitting, hating forgiving, forgetting it might end my trust in you what else can i do you cradled my soul these chains they bind the key i try to find my hearts in a hole micah william kengle
With a bottle of pills in one hand
And a fifth in the other
I try to numb the pain
But all I do is suffer
When hands reach out to help
I turn my head and push them away
Been hurt too many times before
It’s easier to keep them at bay
A broken mind plagues me
I’m tired and a mess
Over and over again
My nights are sleepless
When the darkness calls to me
I can’t close my eyes
Guilt and fear weigh my soul
The shadows come to life
I try but I don’t know who I am
Weeping inside because of my pain
I’m afraid of stepping out into the light
In the end I still don’t have a name
Micah W. Kengle
No More
How many can I take before one too many kills
How long can I keep going on cheap thrills
I’d throw it all in if I thought it’d help
But emotions always end up on the shelf
My mind is bruised, beaten, and broken
And even more so is my soul within
I feel as if nothing really matters to me
My life, my path, my purpose, my sanity
I want to close my eyes and sleep forever
There doesn’t seem a choice of now or never
I have no fighting left, no tears to cry
If I fall to the ground, leave me where I lie
Micah W. Kengle
Disgust
Why must you try to make me concede to the pain?
Question if I’m, you question if I’m sane?
What makes you think you could even stand with me?
Do you know me? Do you even see?
You scream at me in anger, curse the day we met
You whisper to me in silence try to make me regret
You hand me a poisoned apple in a golden case
You’re as beautiful as ever, evil dressed in lace
Why must you dig up everything from the past?
Fly your lies at full staff? Hope the high will last?
Do you really have that much anger and hate?
Which trap did you bait? Which one seals your fate?
You scream at me in anger, curse the day we met
You whisper to me in silence try to make me regret
You hand me a poisoned apple in a golden case
You’re as beautiful as ever, evil dressed in lace
You’ve offered me a branch many times before,
But I’m not so blind to you trying to settle the score.
You scream at me in anger, curse the day we met
You whisper to me in silence try to make me regret
You scream at me in anger, curse the day we met
You whisper to me in silence try to make me regret
You hand me a poisoned apple in a golden case
You’re as beautiful as ever, evil dressed in lace
Micah W. Kengle
unknown try to tear it apart try to break it up you can't because it's my Heart you can't take anything you can't steal anything i've locked my Heart try to tear it apart try to rip it out you try but you doubt you pushed me aside and i pushed you out Micah W Kengle
i look into the face of danger and find the hollow, twisted, and lifeless void of my existence staring back at me.
micah william kengle
there is darkness all around
from the shadows comes a sound
you step out to where i can see you
but you can’t see me
i move now, silently toward you
silently i move closer to you
you step back and darkness engulfs you
where you went i do not know
but you should know that darkness is not my foe
it works with me and i with it
the darkness is mine, i own it
i hear a sound and move toward it
i see you now
now i see you
i move toward you now
there’s nothing you can do
i’m behind you
you turn around
and see me moving toward you
you try to move but you can’t
my hand reaches out
TAG! you’re it!
micah william kengle
i remember that place
i would hide in my mind
safe from pain and fears
i remember that voice
that would call to me softly
telling me there would be no tears
there’s a small place
next to a field
where i planted a tree
there’s a little man
standing in the field
guarding my memories
my memories are strong
sometimes stronger than me
i don’t know what to do
my memories can be weak
so weak there’s a fear
of knowing what to do
i planted that tree
to free my burden
but it’s still here
i buried my pain
to help me remember
why i’m still here
give me time to recall
just why i’m doing this
sometimes it scares me
give me a second to relive
that moment of my life
to find where i left the key
there’s a small place
next to a field
where i planted a tree
there’s a little man
standing in the field
guarding my memories
why do you care
if you where never there
you could never see
everything you did to me
what if i told you now
i never would of made it
and what if i told you
i owe my life to you
what would you say
i say one thing
but really mean another
if it’s lies i bring
then here comes another
what if i told you now
i never would of made it
and what if i told you
i owe my life to you
what would you say
there’s a small place
next to a field
where i planted a tree
there’s a little man
standing in the field
guarding my memories
i planted that tree
to free my burden
but it’s still here
i buried my pain
to help me remember
why i’m still here…
and you’re not
MICAH WILLIAM KENGLE
I’ve seen you before
Standing out in the cold
Why don’t you come in
I’ve seen you fall
Tripping over your pride
Why don’t you let it go
I’ve been there before
Alone in the world
Laying down in the cold
Let me die
I’ve heard you before
Screaming out in pain
How come you don’t quit
I’ve heard you fall
Hitting the ground hard
How come you won’t get up
There’s an open door
Just open your eyes
Here’s my open arms
Why don’t you realize
Micah William Kengle
You beat me to the ground
I scream aloud
No one hears a sound
You grab me by the neck
I squirm in pain
You kick my back
these thoughts in my head
are rather absurd
all my friends are dead
i just want to be heard
i try to hide
but it’s no use
my fears subside
i like the abuse
You beat me to the ground
I scream aloud
No one hears a sound
You grab me by the neck
I squirm in pain
You kick my back
twenty minutes of fame
what does it matter
i’ll still be the same
just a little fatter
my heart cries out
i can’t take the pain
i have only doubts
i might be sane
You beat me to the ground
I scream aloud
No one hears a sound
You grab me by the neck
I squirm in pain
You kick my back
i try to find a release
my eyes are going blind
i try to find peace
search my mind
try to hear what you say
but you’re only in my head
you slowly fade away
didn’t hear what you said
You beat me to the ground
I scream aloud
No one hears a sound
You grab me by the neck
I squirm in pain
You kick my back
left for dead
micah william kengle
