Marching to a Different Beat

Trust

visualtimekeeper — Sat, 17 Sep 2011 06:25:44 +0000

twisting, turning
failing, falling
raging, running
is there no end
screaming, shouting
cursing, crying
living, lying
i see no end
my trust in you
what else can i do
you cradled my soul
these chains they bind
the key i try to find
my hearts in a hole
breaking, biting
punching, pounding
doing, dying
will it ever end
walking, writing
hitting, hating
forgiving, forgetting
it might end
my trust in you
what else can i do
you cradled my soul
these chains they bind
the key i try to find
my hearts in a hole
micah william kengle

Name

visualtimekeeper — Tue, 13 Sep 2011 09:07:24 +0000

With a bottle of pills in one hand

And a fifth in the other

I try to numb the pain

But all I do is suffer

When hands reach out to help

I turn my head and push them away

Been hurt too many times before

It’s easier to keep them at bay

A broken mind plagues me

I’m tired and a mess

Over and over again

My nights are sleepless

When the darkness calls to me

I can’t close my eyes

Guilt and fear weigh my soul

The shadows come to life

I try but I don’t know who I am

Weeping inside because of my pain

I’m afraid of stepping out into the light

In the end I still don’t have a name

Micah W. Kengle

No More

visualtimekeeper — Thu, 01 Sep 2011 06:20:13 +0000

No More
How many can I take before one too many kills
How long can I keep going on cheap thrills
I’d throw it all in if I thought it’d help
But emotions always end up on the shelf
My mind is bruised, beaten, and broken
And even more so is my soul within
I feel as if nothing really matters to me
My life, my path, my purpose, my sanity
I want to close my eyes and sleep forever
There doesn’t seem a choice of now or never
I have no fighting left, no tears to cry
If I fall to the ground, leave me where I lie

Micah W. Kengle

Disgust

visualtimekeeper — Thu, 09 Sep 2010 05:17:29 +0000

Disgust

Why must you try to make me concede to the pain?

Question if I’m, you question if I’m sane?

What makes you think you could even stand with me?

Do you know me? Do you even see?

You scream at me in anger, curse the day we met

You whisper to me in silence try to make me regret

You hand me a poisoned apple in a golden case

You’re as beautiful as ever, evil dressed in lace

Why must you dig up everything from the past?

Fly your lies at full staff? Hope the high will last?

Do you really have that much anger and hate?

Which trap did you bait? Which one seals your fate?

You scream at me in anger, curse the day we met

You whisper to me in silence try to make me regret

You hand me a poisoned apple in a golden case

You’re as beautiful as ever, evil dressed in lace

You’ve offered me a branch many times before,

But I’m not so blind to you trying to settle the score.

You scream at me in anger, curse the day we met

You whisper to me in silence try to make me regret

You scream at me in anger, curse the day we met

You whisper to me in silence try to make me regret

You hand me a poisoned apple in a golden case

You’re as beautiful as ever, evil dressed in lace

Micah W. Kengle

unknown

visualtimekeeper — Mon, 07 Jun 2010 15:50:08 +0000

unknown

try to tear it apart

try to break it up

you can't because it's my Heart

you can't take anything

you can't steal anything

i've locked my Heart

try to tear it apart

try to rip it out

you try but you doubt

you pushed me aside

and i pushed you out

 

Micah W Kengle

looking into the face of danger

visualtimekeeper — Tue, 19 Jan 2010 01:05:59 +0000

i look into the face of danger and find the hollow, twisted, and lifeless void of my existence staring back at me.

micah william kengle

IT

visualtimekeeper — Sat, 26 Dec 2009 06:23:11 +0000

there is darkness all around
from the shadows comes a sound
you step out to where i can see you
but you can’t see me
i move now, silently toward you
silently i move closer to you
you step back and darkness engulfs you
where you went i do not know
but you should know that darkness is not my foe
it works with me and i with it
the darkness is mine, i own it
i hear a sound and move toward it
i see you now
now i see you
i move toward you now
there’s nothing you can do
i’m behind you
you turn around
and see me moving toward you
you try to move but you can’t
my hand reaches out
TAG! you’re it!

micah william kengle

Thorn In My Side

visualtimekeeper — Mon, 14 Dec 2009 06:36:48 +0000

i remember that place
i would hide in my mind
safe from pain and fears
i remember that voice
that would call to me softly
telling me there would be no tears

there’s a small place
next to a field
where i planted a tree
there’s a little man
standing in the field
guarding my memories

my memories are strong
sometimes stronger than me
i don’t know what to do
my memories can be weak
so weak there’s a fear
of knowing what to do

i planted that tree
to free my burden
but it’s still here
i buried my pain
to help me remember
why i’m still here

give me time to recall
just why i’m doing this
sometimes it scares me
give me a second to relive
that moment of my life
to find where i left the key

there’s a small place
next to a field
where i planted a tree
there’s a little man
standing in the field
guarding my memories

why do you care
if you where never there
you could never see
everything you did to me

what if i told you now
i never would of made it
and what if i told you
i owe my life to you
what would you say

i say one thing
but really mean another
if it’s lies i bring
then here comes another

what if i told you now
i never would of made it
and what if i told you
i owe my life to you
what would you say

there’s a small place
next to a field
where i planted a tree
there’s a little man
standing in the field
guarding my memories

i planted that tree
to free my burden
but it’s still here
i buried my pain
to help me remember
why i’m still here…
and you’re not

MICAH WILLIAM KENGLE

REALIZE

visualtimekeeper — Mon, 14 Dec 2009 06:35:10 +0000

I’ve seen you before
Standing out in the cold
Why don’t you come in
I’ve seen you fall
Tripping over your pride
Why don’t you let it go

I’ve been there before
Alone in the world
Laying down in the cold
Let me die

I’ve heard you before
Screaming out in pain
How come you don’t quit
I’ve heard you fall
Hitting the ground hard
How come you won’t get up

There’s an open door
Just open your eyes
Here’s my open arms
Why don’t you realize

Micah William Kengle

Primal Fear

visualtimekeeper — Mon, 14 Dec 2009 06:33:40 +0000

You beat me to the ground
I scream aloud
No one hears a sound
You grab me by the neck
I squirm in pain
You kick my back

these thoughts in my head
are rather absurd
all my friends are dead
i just want to be heard
i try to hide
but it’s no use
my fears subside
i like the abuse

You beat me to the ground
I scream aloud
No one hears a sound
You grab me by the neck
I squirm in pain
You kick my back

twenty minutes of fame
what does it matter
i’ll still be the same
just a little fatter
my heart cries out
i can’t take the pain
i have only doubts
i might be sane

You beat me to the ground
I scream aloud
No one hears a sound
You grab me by the neck
I squirm in pain
You kick my back

i try to find a release
my eyes are going blind
i try to find peace
search my mind
try to hear what you say
but you’re only in my head
you slowly fade away
didn’t hear what you said

You beat me to the ground
I scream aloud
No one hears a sound
You grab me by the neck
I squirm in pain
You kick my back
left for dead

micah william kengle